Sadness and Death

Lately...
i have been on the brink of letting go and saying fuck it to everybody.

Everything feels so worthless.. like time is just slipping by and i cant do anything about it.
it saddens  mw to think that the only thing that i look forward to are paydays.

where i just go ahead and waste all my money on food, expensive clothes and other worthless shenanigans.

i thought i was a deep person, i thought that is what i am all about...
my depth, my complexity and the strange way i look at life.

i thought i was something else in comparison to all the mundane people around me..
but society is slowly eating me away..
all this band wagoning narcissistic people are getting into me.

and all i feel right now is the emptiness that i acquired by getting near these type of people.

im not who i used to be.

i was more than blissful when i was just a simple person living a simple life.

dont get me wrong, my life is not glitz and glamour.

its just that my life now is far from where i started.

i am now blinded by the so called "success" in this society.

i dont know how to get out of this mentality but heck id like to get away.

death. is not an option. though sometimes it seems refreshing.


to think that you have been working your ass out for everything material, but one day, suddenly without warning. you die. and everything was non-sense.



EVERYTHING IS TEMPORARY.